little bit of a breakdown [03/18/2007 20:01:13]

I was a little out of it for a few weeks there. Not quite depressed, but unfocused, unproductive, and unhappy.

There was just no way I'd be able to achieve the goals I set for myself by August. I took on too much, and I ignored the obligations I already had. Somewhere between the five month mark in January and the six month mark in February, I pretty much just gave up.

I work at home, alone. I'm between girlfriends, and I'm not the most social person in the world to begin with, and since I tend to keep in touch with my friends and family mostly over the phone, it's pretty easy for me to fall into a rut without anyone noticing.

I should have been more careful with my mental health there. In end, I dug up an old NLP book and worked through pretty much every exercise in it over the course of a few days. I cleared up a lot of issues and mental blocks that had been bugging me.

I feel a whole lot better now. I was really dragging on tech support, and also struggling with motivation for this ticket system, but on Friday, after the NLP work, I caught up on (almost) all of the emails that had piled up over the past month. I still have a few tricky ones left to go through, but I'll be caught up completely in a day or two. The point is I don't need a ticket system because I can't handle the work, I just want one so I can delegate that routine stuff and spend more of my own time on more challenging work.

I'm going to come up with some new written goals as soon as I'm caught up on email and taxes. It's going to be a shorter list this time, with a smaller timeframe.