frustration in ten minutes [07/25/2008 11:52:06]

I'm completely frustrated right now. I've been up since 7:30. It's almost noon now and I haven't gotten a dang thing done.

No, okay, I went for a walk.

Yesterday was great at the start and then after the second loop things fell apart and I was off track the rest of the day. I went to bed frustrated and couldn't sleep.

Around 1 or 2 am, I got up, and I went to one of my zillion to-do lists, and I started cleaning it up using the principles from Getting things Done. It helped a lot and about half an hour later, I went to bed and was calm and collected and relaxed.

I woke up at 7:30 without an alarm clock. I've been eating better the past few days, and sleeping less.

I decided I should dedicate my "goal" chunks today to keep working through the GTD process.

I also decided I'd do my planning sessions on this blog. So I started my first loop and wound up getting into this long rant about what happened yesterday and the insights I learned from my experiences.

Then in the middle of writing, my Mom called. She's been on a trip the past week and I haven't talked to her much. She was telling me a lot of stuff about the family, and it was actually a really nice conversation, but the whole time I was feeling stressed because I'd been in the middle of writing. I would have enjoyed it so much more if I'd been able to finish writing before taking the call.

I guess that's why I'm frustrated. It's not really that big of a deal.

Anyway, I gave myself ten minutes to vent and I guess I do feel better now.

I saved the longer post as a draft and I'll get back to it some other time.

I think this blog is going to just be what it's always been - a tool to help me clarify my thinking through egocentric rambling. But I also have a lot more I want to write about in a more timeless way. Something that's not a blog. I'm going to start putting those ideas up as drafts on my other sites, and start refining them over time.

Okay, my ten minutes are up. I feel a lot better. Now I'll post it to the web so you can all laugh at my neurosis.